Seeing the half filled cup

If only we could change ourselves  and see how world around us changes. For almost losing half of my life thinking about half empty cup of my life i realized i didn't cherish the half filled cup. The hot freshly brewed coffee became stale, tasteless n cold. Why we put so much of stress on being competent   and on being successful that we forget to focus on simple joys of life like being with our children. Why a working mother like me crib and shout on kids when they don’t do their homework on time or play for an extra hour. Time bound, yes it is good to be disciplined, but living your life mechanically driven by clock? Health taking a backseat in such circumstances, mind body balance out of place, we run mindlessly from home to office and then offices to home.No time for parents, neighbors, kids, spouses or ourselves  even. We pretend to be happy and go to buying spree to pacify our racing mind that we have enough resources, piling our cupboard,s with more clothes, books, shoes , toys, gazettes etc .
For me, enjoying morning tea with newspaper in hand on Sundays, watching Gulmohur tree is meditative .Rising early a few times just to watch sunrise or quietly listening to music while sunset is bliss.
Sharing a hearty laughter with someone is precious than roaming in crowded mall on holiday is much better.
Talking and communicating is forgotten skill and became painful unaffordable task. Before parents call me, my heart skips a beat or two. Scared that there might be some sort of request to relatives or attend some function. Sitting with kids seems a task physically present but mind wavering all the time.

To be comfortable in your own skin or to have conflict free life is not that difficult. “Accept yourself first then people accept you “is the key .No conflicts No pain. Go with the flow philosophy suits me best .Yes it may sound i am laid back non ambitious person, but still better than having a life where sleepless nights and binging without reason becomes a daily routine.
I found my way thankfully .with a light guiding me althrough a light of faith. Throughout my journey which is unique in its own sense.