Urn of desire

Urn of my desires
I buried deep in my backyard
Thought no one would ever know
But once my loneliness
Came complaining and stuck on urn
Desire "to be loved" popped out
And coaxed me to have little fun.

Later this month
"Worthiness" was facing on low
Started to scratch the ground
And popped another desire
to do something meaningful
So my pen insisted  n inked
my mind on paper
Creating a beautiful poem..

Then lately , my gypsy soul
Got excited and dug into terra
The urn tinkles once more
Desire to "travel n explore"
Beaches, hills and pilgrims
adding all in my bucket list .

Then,when i sat silently back home
Still not happy and quite bored
I took out the urn
Suddenly every desire flew up in sky
My hand searched inside the urn
Last broken penny in the end
Had lord's name engraved on its sides
I gripped it and felt my spirit soar
Closed my eyes and tears rolled down
When i opened my eyes
The urn was there no more..
  

Curse of a loner

May you burn slow in
cinders of self loath,
Longingness your
sole companion
And loneliness be
your only abode...

You poked me
Choked me
Forfeiting promises of love,
While i was slumbering
In my solitude
There you pricked me
On my weakest nerve...

You provoked desire to be
in love forever
Leaving me in lurch soon
thereafter,
Now walls of my ruins
hauntingly burst often
into insane laughter...

Sleathly morphed from
peaceful dreamer
to a grieving mourner,
My scathed heart
bestow you these words
As curse of a loner...

Someone somewhere

I grew up thinking💬💭
There is someone somewhere🤴👰
Then after long wait
I thought of anyone anywhre 🕵️‍♂️🕵️‍♀️
Finally i know its no one nowhere⚪❌✖  ...

हिक़ारत

जो मांग के मिले
वो इनायत नही चाहिये
जो दिल से निकले
वो शिकायत भी है क़बूल

वो झूठ से रंगी
सुर्ख मोहब्बत नही चाहिए
सच की स्याह में डूबी
तेरी हिक़ारत भी है क़बूल

Aaj hwa chli hai

Aaj bahut dino baad hwa chli hai
Shaqo ke pate ek doosre se baat kr rahe hai
Aankho ke pass namkeen boonde aaj gale tk giri nhi
Bas Sookh gyi
Hwa chli toh ahsaas hua ki tum ho
Kyunki khoshboo mei tumhari pehchan thi
Warna shayad the toh tum pehle bhi
Aaj dhoop ki chubhan km lg rhi hai
Geet ke mtlb bhi samjh aarhe hai
Kyunki aaj bahut dino baad fir hwa chli hai

Fard फरd

कब तक उठाए रंगीनियों का लुत्फ़ ,
कब तक मनाए जश्न ए आशिकी ,
एहसास सारे खुशनुमा ही  हो ग़र ,
तो क्या ख़ाक बितायी जिंदगी ,
कभी ख़ुद क़ो समझने के लिए ,
कुछ फर्द भी जरूरी है ...

फलसफे दूसरो के पढ़े हमने ,
पर जान ना पाए कभी कुछ भी ,
जवाबों की कुछ इस क़दर थी तलाश,
कि आजमाइशों में गुजारी ये उम्र ,
फ़िर मालूम हुया सीखने कें लिऐ ,
कुछ दर्द भी जरूरी है ...

Kab tak uthaye ranginiyo ka lutf
Kab tak manaye zashn e ashiqui
Ehsaas sare khushnuma hi ho gar
Toh kya khaakh bitayi zindngi
Kbhi Khud ko samjnhne ke liye
kuch fard bhi zaruri hai....

Falsafe dusro ke pade humne
Per jaan n paye kbhi kuch bhi
Jawabo ki kuch is kadr thi talaash
Ki Aizmaish me guzari yeh umr
Fir malum huya seekhne ke liye
kuch dard bhi zaruri hai

Freeing

I so want to be unashamed, ruthless
And so mean sometimes..
I.so wanna say i damn care
N move on
I so want to crush these myths surrounding my beliefs
I so wanna be just ME
Why we have to set ourselves in to moulds
People have laid for us
If i keep bending to fit in
I m so adorable
Only till i set myself free from
The golden cages of praises
There is  heavy price to pay
Just to be original n insane
But to have thier love
I must obey, follow
However foolish i may remain.

5 yrs old

When in the middle of night?
I start missing you
And let my tears flow..
I think of a five years old girl,
Who too misses you
Probably with more intensity..
But she is a child and
amuses herself quite easily too.
I feel petty n little, 
But i still let myself cry,
I have an option to forget you,
For i am scared of darkness around me
With nothing to hold on to
Except that hope and that feel,
what i am.holding to
Why i am.holding to..
I have nothing to lose, i think
Or it is the last bet to which
I have given all .
I too want to be like that five years old
Who only knows one thing,
That you will be back soon..