I turned 47 this December

Amazingly ,I dont feel i have actually spent 47  years on this earth .I still feel the same all through these years.slight   modifications in my behaviour but not an iota of change   in my inner nature i.e soul.Soul doesn't get old.
Life is not about knowing "Life"  , but about knowing "oneself.To know oneself is to know ones true nature.We sheepishly follow the rules laid by society.When we are kids we are free    but as soon as we grow a little, our parents, teachers, friends start giving us so called Gyaan .Gradually to adjust or to "Fit in" we start giving up our true nature and behave the way we are programmed to.
A child during infancy has his "Tenth door" or crown chakra or "fontannel" opened up ..he still receives energy  from higher conciousness but soon, it gets closed.The child is blissful always and euphoric ,ecstatic stage.Ever smiling and joyful .But   , this connect is lost, he becomes worrisome, anxious  and irritable.Now he is into all other nine openings but not at all receiving energy from "Dasam dwaar"   ..the tenth door.
He forgets his true nature and becomes robotic.His emotions leafing him and emotions too are manipulated by people around  and media .
To know yourself , get back atleast 10 years back in time .suppose you are  of 40  years.go back when you were 30 years.Try to remember few major events of your life.flashed thorough your mind.and observe tbe way these incidents make u feel.write down the main points that come across your mind.
Now, go back 10 more years back when you were in 20s and try to remember how you were at that time.what made you excited n joyful.Take notes again ..feel te same way ..notice what emotions were dominant .
Then go back further 10 years and repeat..go back to the earliest memories of your childhood.( mostly people remember upto 2 or 2.5 years)
Now that you have taken note of your main events and also the feelings..you will notice something common in all these incidents .The inside of you..your inner self must have been consistent .Thats your soul which doesnt grow old...thats the true YOU.Tap into that feeling once again and nurture it.aStart doing these small things which made you happy and connected.And see how life turns out to be same .Fall into love with  yourself once more.Dont be hopeful and wait till infinity,  for hope according to me is begging for a promising future.Belive and trust have faith because faith is confidence.
Get up and be yourself ..dont follow the herd .