Freaking mind
Destiny or free will?
Conflicted through out
To be my mind or my heart
Which one i let sprout
Mind is a drunk guard
Not much of any use.
Heart sink n pounce
On every single muse
Enough of my mind,
It gives me insomnia
Will obey my meek heart
Let it be free...gypsying...into freaking bohemia..Copyrights @Babita Yadav.All rights reserved 2017
I never loved you...
Yes i lied
Months n years passed
We laughed n travelled together
I was empty inside
And you filled me to the brim
But Jesus. i never loved you.
And chances were too grim
You were dreaming
I say
That the kisses n sharing is love
But you were a bridge between me n my belief
I crossed paving on you
Towards my own dreams
Am i sorry or have remorse ?
How pathetic inhuman my intentions are
I feel guilty off course
But i admit here my ocean
You filled me when i was parched
I never loved you...perhaps
But i owe you all the faith i regained
That love still is breathing...
I never loved you...
Yes i lied
Months n years passed
We laughed n travelled together
I was empty inside
And you filled me to the brim
But Jesus. i never loved you.
And chances were too grim
You were dreaming
I say
That the kisses n sharing is love
But you were a bridge between me n my belief
I crossed paving on you
Towards my own dreams
Am i sorry or have remorse ?
How pathetic inhuman my intentions are
I feel guilty off course
But i admit here my ocean
You filled me when i was parched
I never loved you...perhaps
But i owe you all the faith i regained
That love still is breathing...
How can someone be so unreal.how can someone forget all...
How can i remember d details n cry missing it
How can you pretend it all..
What's the pleasure if you didnt live it..
And no point you masked it ...all
Vodka nights..promises n wandering on marooned roads ...
The fragnance of night.and moon light hovering on us...
Bamboo trees whisteling our story..
As if happy to see love blooming..
Dropping the barriers ...between us.
We lived those days before we die..
I remember all .....n u still feigning..
Chod de a dost mujhko..
Nibbhana do jaga tujse bhi nhi ho payega
Shayad kuch kam rah gya samunder mein
Jo tu rishte a dariya maein kya doondh payega..
Hum ro ro kr sukha lenge gam ko apne
Tu fir dariya ke sookh janey per kya luat payega?
Mana humne bhi gustaqiya bahut ki hai..
Lekin mohhabat bhi bepanah ki tujse
Itni jaldi tu samet na paya abhi tak
Toh kya itni jaldi tu bhula payega?
Tujh per yakin ..jaise khuda per yakin krna...
Tujhe pyar krna jaise..khud ko hai pyar karna.
Waqt shyad bahut intehaan lega
Per har intehaa ...ko hai paar krna
Ab nhi hoga kisi per yakin kabhi
Kyunki mushkil hai itna yakin har baar krna
तुझ पर यकीं ..
जैसे खुद पर यकीन करना।
तूझे प्यार करना जैसे ..खुद को है प्यार करना।
वक्त शायद बहुत इन्तेहाँ लेगा
पर हर इन्तेहा को है पार करना
अब नही होगा किसी पर यकीं कभी
कयूंकि मुश्किल है इतना यकीं हर बार करना
तुमको अपना जान के सुना दिया हाल अपना
और बाँट लिया कुछ समान अपना
तुम समझ न सके इस साँझेदारि को
और चार ले आये..हाथों में लिये अरमान अपना
साँझेदारि.यकीन..दोस्ती सब काँच सी थीं
टूटने मे देर लगती कहाँ
बिखर गया खुशनुमा सपना
नींद भी अधूरी सी थी
ऐसे मे मेरी मामूली.सी आस
इस उथले से रिश्ते मे भला टिकती कहाँ...
In the middle of night,i kept awake,
While all others are snoring around me....
In one of those very moments ,against all hopes, i found me .
That was the time , i felt i wasn't aligned ,
Knew, that i am not doing what i have been assigned.
Wrenching pain ,inside somewhere,
Kept asking over and over,
Whats missing in me ?dark ravanous thoughts would hover.
The pillow soaked wet in salt spilled through the eyes,
And no one but me could hear those cries.
Then once for all, moment got frozen and air smelled gloomy,
Then in silence,heard my aching heart whisper to me.
If only i would have heard it before,
The whisper grew louder,and i was so sure.
It was calling me out and answered me everything,
That my dear...what you seeking outside.is here within...
YOU.i considered my world,my relief,my soulmate..
When i lost all in darknessof life...
I guarded and hid you from my barabaric fate.
With YOU,i have seen blossom in desert,
With.YOU,i have created my heaven,
WithYOU, i loved myself more.
If i lose you.something inside me will be perished,
Coz,till now togetherness we shared is all i cherished.
Not to believe you, would be a a painful suicide,
My tears flowing,my hearts ripped off and there is nothing more to hide.
Desperate attempt to keep my faith alive, pushing aside the doubts...
Keeping YOU n me as "US" ,
But like everything ephemerel...
Your aloofness is now taking a toll..
"YOU n me " is a mere belief after all......
